Thirsty Soul

Thirsty soul

I feel emptiness within my soul ...since long before........

I ran out of the house to look for a way out...

Overwhelming blankness

Made me consume alcohol that inspired

Me to rummage around far and wide....

When I realized it wouldn’t help much

I made an effort to smoke and puff out

When I realized it wouldn’t help much

I attempted to slay myself...

But I didn’t have spirit to do so...

I ran everywhere to seek for aid.......

Don’t ask me who I met....

Ask me who I did not meet....

Monks...priests.....counsellors.....fortune tellers...

Temples...churches....idle worship...palm readers...

No one could help me out...

Lies lies everyone lies....

Just for money....

I shed tears till my eyes turned red...

Whenever emptiness took over me...

When I gazed at the empty sky...

Rolling tears down my face...

I mumble to myself...

Is there anyone I could rely on?

Is there anyone i could lay my faith on?

Every time I looked over the blue....

My heart told me not to slay myself...

What’s more to wait do it right now...

Other side of the soul drive me to agony

Core of the physical body...

I struggled stiffly to battle against

Whisper of conflict....

When ’I am worn out of running from despair

I looked for a place to hide from view......

Ask me where I didn’t go...

Don’t ask me where I went

Highest mountains dark pothole

Deepest ocean sunny wasteland

Green woodland

Never forget to ask myself how far I could run

Replenish an empty soul...

Look for relieve...

I have ever had spent sleepless nights...

Counting the twinkling stars...

Through the gaps above roof...

Lying on bed like body without soul...

I have ever had... go over the top with

Ravenous ...days and nights...

Look for resolution to thirsty soul...

Have had try on everything I could do.....

Seems to be zilch would work out...

Scary nightmare took away my happiness

Unseen evil forces seize over my soul

Persuade me through nightmarish

Haul me into the shade of wickedness

That’s where I mislay control

Man I trusted on..........

Woman I trusted on........

Friend I trusted on..............

Left me behind..............

I used to utter to trees the moon and stars.

Whispered over the rustle breeze...

Every time I sigh....

Rekindle feeling hold me tight

Fell like recurrent respond in return

Is there anyone I could talk to...

Is there anyone could hear me...

Mourning of fear....

Enfolded my heart....

Concealment of illusion stands before me..

Wedged my thought by concealed darkness....

The more i became feeble

The more iniquity became brawny

I am at lost.....

Lost myself....

I never thought of...

Could uncover myself ever again..

I feel seclusion

The midst of thousand people...

I ask myself what is the rationale of existence?

Fear of death

Swathe me around.

Out of swift

Wonderful idea came across my mind

Thought of soar

By turning my life into a thriving flower

Who has the supremacy?

Bring to an end...struggle of terror...

What has made me to say to become Muslim?

Who has the superiority to Placed?

Clean soul into my physical body

Strong spirit to fight over unseen

It is only you my Lord

Lord of the world

Eternal, adorable, most merciful

You honoured me by choosing me to become your slaves

Silently you peek into my heart to tell me that you are the one and only..... Living God....

Your love

Kindness affectionate

Teaches me the value of life

Here I am my Lord

Now on I live a life

To serve you

As you please

You are the only one I hope on

To rely on

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